Note: This is an ARCHIVED entry and does not necessarily reflect how I behave and how I think "today".


2 days ago i done 12.5 hour shift and by 1am had terrible flu. had 4 hrs sleep the night before so felt pretty crap the whole day, then spent the entire time with my face in diarrea and vomit since about 25 of the residents have it, there was absolutely no way in hell i wasn´t gonna get it myself. didn´t sleep a wink of that night, was like nonstop hallucinations/imaginations, like dreams except i wasn´t asleep. was so weak i cudn´t move the glass to my face for like 6 hours straight. tried to vomit about 7 times but it hurt so much (wtf?) my body auto-stopped it.

2 residents died in the last 3 days, both ones i had spent time with, dressed, talked to, helped to walk, seen a couple of days or hours before. kinda sucked coz a few hours or maybe the day before i was pissed off, i went in to XX just to see him coz he was back from hospital again, got the water sponge thing and was squeezing it against his lips to give him some water, after a bit he started responding and sucking on it and done this for like 2 minutes before i had to go answer a bell. but i thought shit this guy should be still in hospital on a drip, or have someone doing what i was doing 24/7 else he´s just gonna have no water and die asap. i mentioned it to a staff and they said, he´s on deaths doorstep and the family want him to die in the home, we don´t have the staff or facility to attend to him like a hospital so there´s nothing we can do. that poor guy sucking desperately on that sponge and thinking he´s gonna die of thirst and neglect is my last thought of him

we wear gloves at work, no face masks. i can´t fathom why, like i said it was a 100% chance that i caught this virus after being there just 2 days in its prescence, simply because we go from contaminated room to room clearing up vomit, taking off peoples nappies, waiting while they shit diarrea and vomit at the same time while they lay on the bed or are suspended in the hoist, then wipe them, then wait again while they do it again, then wipe them again, etc..

funny thing that the nurse had to "have a word" with me about, was the other night when the undertakers came. the lounge doors were closed, but i thought that was because one of the residents had slipped off her wheelchair, when really it was because they arent supposed to see the undertakers incase they get upset. so i kneel down next to ZZ who´s quite comfortable on the floor right now, and joke "oh the undertakers have come for you" and burst out laughing (as did the other nurse i was with) before everyone in ear-shot came to hush me up. it´s things like this i have to avoid getting fired for so i can get a decent reference for future jobs =/

speaking of which i am ever-so-much nearer to resuming poker. 1 buyin per day at 50NL, in hands, would be very comfortable and pay like 10% more than my work salary. that´s 2k hands/day? maybe when i get tired of my MMO Rising Force Online (which i only play couple hrs per day anyway, if at all). i just had my first taste of RvR, since our race is like 600% underpowered and has enemies invading our newbie-areas non-stop, and since i wandered into the RvR schedualled battlefield and was saved from instant death by a group of high-lvs spinning round the corner, then followed the archon (top player) as long as i cud before my newbie warrior speed got the better of me (so like 30 seconds)